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04:23am 16/12/2005
  ph, the worst part is that they are tearing this place down. i really honestly have to say goodbye to this place, i've been coming here since freshman year and i cannot believe i live here now, at least for one more night. so many things are going on and i feel like the destruction of one of my most precious college memories shouldn't be a part of it all. i'll try to stay up for 48 more hours so i don't have to sleep through a goodbye.  
     

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festivus yes! bagels no!   
06:40pm 14/12/2005
 
music: c30 c60 c90 go!
39 Charlotte is OURS!

i didn't think we could get such a nice apartment on such short notice. it's a four person but we only have three so that means TWO living rooms or one living room and a library or a study or a dance room or a real live dining room or ANYTHING we want! I'm excited to be living with these girls because i think our styles will mix really well. i'm also excited about being close to the suite's apartment and MUCH closer to traina.

i told lili she needs to hang her self portrait in the living room and maybe we can set up a shooting range for rachel. WHO KNOWS!?

it'll be my first apartment that isn't subletted or campus owned! oh we truly are growing up. it also means i'll be living in worcester this summer after a month long euro-wind down session in norfolk. who wants to live with me?

uuuh back to studying for my only final and writing 20pages on exactly how ATOMIC OXYGEN TREATMENT restores paintings damaged by fire.		  
     

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cause i'm a real straight shooter if you know what i mean   
08:14pm 29/11/2005
  this semester has been so much fun
+the apartment is amazing
-i don't get out of it enough
+london soon
-too soon
+the mamas and the papas
+peggy lee
+saw molly on sunday
-i ate/drank too much at thanksgiving and fell asleep under the dining room table
+ ( my nana )		  
     

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01:04pm 29/07/2005
  tom petty and the heartbreakers with the black crowes tomorrow!
it's mary's birthday present to me- a mini roadtrip to new york to visit her college roomate and a lot of people i don't know. AND TOM PETTY!
mmmmmmm.
i'll pretty much be gone until friday or saturday, i'm going to the beach for a few days so i'll be nice and tan for the party. it's really absurd, i have tan lines.
anyone have any special requests for the party? i've got pigs in a blanket covered but i want to make sure everyone is happy.		  
     

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even mollusks have weddings, though solemn and leaden   
11:23pm 15/07/2005
  i have been completely cut off from all technology for the past week (+). this is due to the fact that i’ve been on martha’s vineyard and although i was supposed to return on sunday, my car broke down and i was there until tuesday, edging on wednesday. there are worse places to be stranded i suppose.
while there i bought a few too many art history books, ignored several people i believe i went to high school / college with and actually managed to get a bit of a tan. my mother also turned me on to joanna newsom whom i really do enjoy (specifically “Inflammatory Writ” “Peach Plum Pear” “Bridges and Balloons” and “Cassiopeia”).
i made it back to the apartment and found an amazing pair of shoes waiting on my bed- thank you kate!! they really are very very “sam” whatever that really means.
i’m bummed that i missed the little reunion at kate’s house but there wasn’t much i could do about it anyway. it will happen again on aug 6th right?
i’ve been reading and rereading my david sedaris books. he is certainly one of my favorite writers, even though i feel that liking him is kind of a cop out in a way. how could you not like him? i finally read “the curious incident of the dog in the night-time” it only took me a day but it was “written” by a retarded kid so i don’t think it should have taken me much longer than that.
i have recently discovered my love for mangos. they are absolutely delicious in any form! mango juice! mango bars! sweet raw mangos!!
i was having dinner at my grandparent’s house and my grandfather told me that out of everyone in the family i reminded him most of my grandmother (my nana) and her mother (my great grandmother). i was more than pleased to hear that i was like my nana, she is an amazingly strong and talented woman who manages to hold the entire family together. but i was very disturbed to hear that i was like my great grandmother. i never met her even though she just died about a year ago. my grandparents (on my mothers side, my father’s parents are long gone) each had difficult childhoods. my nana’s mother got married at 16 and had four kids before she was twenty. she was apparently stunningly beautiful and she sang on the radio- a job that seems glamorous but was evidently relatively common back then. my great grandfather was an alcoholic gambler so my great grandmother whose real name was alma, but she often said her name was laura or patricia, decided to make money the best way she knew how. the oldest profession in the world. my great grandmother was a whore!! i can reveal all of these seemingly personal and private things with ease because i don’t really feel like she was a part of our family. at nine years old my nana was ordered to pack up some of her mother’s things so that she could run away. she left the family and remarried a few years later in DC without ever divorcing my great grandfather. out of her three children (one of them, a twin of the youngest boy, had died just after birth) my nana was the only one to forgive her ten years later.
at nineteen my nana moved to DC to live with her mother who had called her after her new husband norman went missing during the korean war. norman eventually returned home and my grandfather proposed to my nana, causing her to leave DC and follow him around the country (he was in the air force).
what happened to my nana in those ten years that her mother had deserted her was unimaginable. that’s why i believe she is an amazingly strong person. just trust me on that.
my great grandmother never spoke to any member of her “old” family except for my nana. she grew to have a relationship with her, my grandfather and their children (my mom and aunts). my mom told me that she was fun and lively but selfish and unloving. my grandfather has said more than once “you know everything she tells you is a lie, but it’s so entertaining that you don’t care!”. she had an alluring personality but she was absolutely incapable of loving anyone other than herself. so, I’m a lot like her? i’m not a singer, i’m not a whore, i’m not particularly entertaining, i’m left thinking that my grandfather meant i am unable to love.		  
     

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